Another Year, Another Chance

Happy New Year! I see this year as all the others as a chance. It's a chance to make the most of my life and the most of college as it won't happen again. College has been just what I needed. Living on my own has strengthened not only my relationship with my friends, but also with my family. I've gained so much maturity and independence which is so refreshing. I'm beyond excited for this year. I'm ready for some new classes and I can't wait to have two new roommates who I love for the next school year. Overall I'm letting myself be optimistic. It might not last long, but it's worth a shot, haha.
New Year's Eve was amazing. It was even better because I honestly didn't think that it would be that fun. Everyone was on their best behavior and got along. It just made me so grateful for my friends. The of course a certain someone had to stop by. I mean it made me so happy that he called and came over, but it's so dangerous at the same time. I mean seriously, why does he have to be so cute?! So frustrating. Why did he have to hug me in the basement and then when he left at my door? Why did he have to hold on so long and say Happy New Year in my ear? Why did he have to become such a good hugger, haha? What exactly are his intentions? Oh man, so many questions that will probably never be answered... especially the last one. So I was thinking that if I still have all these questions about him, has anything really changed between us? And then I realized that I have changed. Sure, I still have these questions, but they don't depress me... rather they intrigue me. I think I finally, once and for all accepted the fact that it is highly likely that nothing will ever happen between us. I guess it's just nice to see if something might. I can't escape the fact that I'll always have feelings for him. And so now I just see if he might have just a little bit of feelings for me, haha. Oh well, as long as I'm in good spirits, it's all good.
And so here's to starting off the New Year with optimisim and living each day to the fullest!